Thursday, March 22, 2012

Stuck Like Glue




To help offset the costs of living I have become employed at the local school district. For the most part the subbing jobs are relatively easy and low stress. I especially enjoy subbing at the high school. The kids are usually very kind, thoughtful and hardworking. I actually try to get jobs at the high school because the days are so easy. The kids in this town are raised well and are exceptionally well behaved.

I have subbed a few times in the vocational technology classes. I have found the kids a little rough around the edges, but they are usually really good about doing whatever the teacher has left for them. Case in point: I taught woodshop and the construction class worked well on their project, including using the saws with no problems. I had another class, however that was not so well behaved. Since the assignment didn’t take most of them a long time I allowed them to go across the hall to the computer lab to work on other projects. I spent the rest of class walking back and forth between classrooms to check on both groups of students. While this was happening, a crafty group of youngsters decided to change the clocks so I would let them go to lunch early. They were able to change the clock in each room while I was in the other. I was a bit frustrated when I discovered they had bested me, but I wished them well on their early lunch. I was also excited to come back for a second day to “surprise” them. Yes, revenge is sweet when you hold the power.

However, I was not able to enjoy my victory. I have a favorite water bottle. It’s metal and has citrus fruit on the outside. I bought it for a few bucks at Old Navy a couple of years ago. One period I was in the computer lab with the class. When class ended I entered the regular classroom to discover two hooligans putting glue into my favorite water bottle. I think they were trying to glue it shut. They seemed a bit surprised to be caught in the act. I however, was a bit heartsick about the fact that these seemingly wonderful students would do something so completely disrespectful. I have to remind myself that they are teenagers and thus are prone to poor decision-making. I know I did some dumb stuff when I was in high school, but I’m proud to say that I never intentionally destroyed someone else’s property. Ultimately, I think it was the blatant lack of respect for others belongings that bothered me. I had done nothing to make their lives difficult. It was frustrating to realize that they cared so little about other people.

The good news: Dad says wood glue is water soluble so I was able to salvage the water bottle.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

I Know the Truth/You'll Never Walk Alone

*This song is obviously about a relationship…I want to be clear, there is no man. Replace “Him” with “It” and think grad school dreams.

This week marks the second major disappointment for me in the last year. When Peace Corps became an impossibility, I was consoled by the fact that Graduate School was the next logical step.

Well this week I officially received a rejection letter from the university I auditioned at in February. Having already received a rejection from my top choice, my remaining option is too expensive. I have been accepted, but they are not offering me any tuition help, so I can’t afford to go. (Unless I want to spend 10 years paying off student loans.)

So…Grad School hopes have come and gone. I guess the thing that makes it most frustrating is that I feel like everything I want to do with my life has been thwarted in recent months. I wish I was a natural optimist, but I’m having a hard time seeing the silver lining in this. I have no doubt that the Lord has a plan, but it feels pretty elusive right now.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my students this week. At our last concert I sang this song because I wanted them to keep going when they faced tough situations. I can almost hear them reminding me to take a dose of my own advice.


There are lots of versions available, but I always enjoy Sissel:
Just your average girl who's life has taken some unexpected turns.